Sunday 27 October 2019

My only blessing is Your Happiness

I told myself not to recall any moments of us being together,
I told my brain that memories remained memories, 
I told my life that you were there only a decade of my life. 

I whispered to my cells that silence was the best gift for you, 
I whispered to my heart that letting go wasn't a difficult action, 
I whispered to my tears that the heart knew what it always wanted. 

Your happiness is being together with the one you love, 
My happiness is moving on to the path I hope, 
I hope your love does take you to the right constellation. 

We taught each other to love, to learn, and to live. 
He forgets his promises by capturing a world of colors, 
I remember his words to remind myself not to fall in a world of roses. 

Love, is not an obligation - you don't need money for honey, 
Learn, is not a decision - you don't need temptation for sensation, 
Live, is not an attention - you need contemplation for reflection.  

Tuesday 15 October 2019

Moving On: My scars in the stars.

Moving is easier, Moving on is a feeling, 
A temptation, a judgement, or an act of letting it go. 
Her heart can feel the scars when she looks at the star. 
They wink at night by giving a glimpse of light, 
The moon smiles with light to warm the night. 

No thinking out loud, but thinking about...
The feeling of scars is the torn paper, 
She tries to discover the colors under the umbrella, 
There is no sky but try. 
 
A voice, an echo, the first verse for her first love:

The lust is rusted with trust, 
Trust is a must to last, 
But, Last has just Past. 

She put the umbrella aside, 
She begins to change the rhythm, 
Her rhythm of joy: 

When you know the moon has found its star, 
Protecting their future light, 
They way they smile will shine the day. 

I will be the shooting star 
To continue their spark, 
In the darkness of heart. 


Saturday 20 October 2018

Funfair

The lights led me around, 
I started my merry-go-round. 

The clown gave a balloon, 
He thought I was a loon. 

The fairy sold me cake, 
My bite was just a fake. 

The goblin wanted a spouse,
He gifted me a blouse. 

There was no merry-go-round,
Yet, being a loon, 
Too late to realise the fake
Transparent blouse. 


Tuesday 14 August 2018

CofFree

I want a cup of coffee,
Without cream but milk,
I want a glass of coffee,
Without sugar but honey,
I want a pot of coffee,
To cough you free. 

Sunday 27 May 2018

DIE, ay!

Dice free from division,
Ice breaks through frozen,
Eyes learn through vision,

Aye starts from variation! 

Sunday 3 December 2017

No Wine but Water? No Cupid, but Click. Still Piglet and Pooh!

Gravity of Love

He was not the one… not the apple in Piglet’s eyes, but her heart seemed to have some chemical reaction when she saw Pooh. The moment that they rowed a raft and peace surrounded them, she sensed the secureness in her heart. Yet, Piglet dragged her attention to learn the skill of rowing the raft. She knew that something might get wrong if she insisted that thoughts. NO WAY! Under the moonlight, Pooh listened to her stories and gave her a pat. Piglet believed his Cupid and hoped he would find a girl who treats him nicely and blissfully. This was the only wish that she could give to him. She prayed, fell asleep, and dreamt with a smile on her face, under the moonlight. 

"Thanks, Bro."

No Boundary

Do you believe there is a pure friendship between girls and boys? Her answer is always a ‘Yes’. She could feel his care and she did care for him, hoping that he was happy in school. Thinking that he would always drive safe on his way home. Piglet did capture the moments when they beat and slapped each other during the journey to the South and those workshops in school. She knew he made her feel like a soulmate, instead of brother. She likes the mysterious feeling that how they are able to understand each other without saying, but just feel. 

Piglet and Pooh like COOKIES.

Again, she was aware of her heart and mind, she sensed the ‘click’ with Pooh. She remembered those feelings! She knew that she cared so much for him, instead of others. Piglet and Pooh kept silent. All she wished was just...Pooh's real smile. Piglet's eyes could tell that he is charming and handsome. Yet, she didn’t really... didn’t want to hurt HIM. She would rather keep it as a secret and let it be, naturally, silently, rationally.


The Deep Secret

"I won’t be the stone to create his tumbling waves, he had her smile like the rays of light. I like macarons, he prefers miel coulé. A blind combination will only create diabetes."
 -Piglet

A Sudden Action

A year passed, Pooh's effort paid off. He held a 'Pizza with Pineapple' workshop and invited her. Although she was not a fan of pineapple, she attended it and regarded the pineapple as Cheese. After attending the workshop, after the workshop ended, she dropped her tears, bursting with happiness as she had been seeing him feeling stressed for weeks and hence, it is finally Over! She smiled in her deepest part of her heart because Pooh has been growing, Pooh does a great job and Pooh is POOH! (pfffff) HAHAHA

To express her excitement, she wanted to congratulate him, but everyone was there…Therefore, she stood behind them...not daring to do so. She hoped to hug him and said: "I am proud of you." NO chance, no time. That day, dinner was their only time to enjoy talking and being together. After dinner, he said: “I feel like hugging you.” 

Oh My God!!! Her mind literally had the same thought but how timid she was to actually take a move...She didn’t even know why she cared for him that much, worrying that he might get tired when driving back. Yup, she hoped he drove safe always. That night, Pooh held her hands and hugged her. Obviously, it was out of her expectation. She thought she wouldn't be the one…she thought ‘BRO’ was enough for them. When she felt like breaking down and stop thinking about her previous relationship, she felt hurt when recalling, so she bumped her head to the ground. Surprisingly, his hands captured her head…gently putting her down to ease her worries. Pooh gave her a mark on her cheeks. Again, she was touched and she felt the care. 
"Thanks for always being there for me, as a close friend." 

Really? Jincak? Apa masalah...?

            "Love has no logic? Love has no gravity? Love has no boundary?"
-Piglet: "I can't solve this". 

She thought she is just ordinary, an ignorant (or maybe stupid) and useless... but the ‘click’ happened, it happened and why happened. "I am really nothing, trash and not perfect. I am afraid that I might hurt you." she monologued. Eventually, she was shocked and surprised that Pooh was dared to say out his feelings. BUT WHY "piglet" She is just a PIG, immature PIGLET…


No Logic

Lottie, Heffalumps, Rabbit, and Kessie... they are better, they are prettier and clever…LoVe seemed to be difficult to discover. Piglet enjoyed calling him, several an hour 11 minutes. Piglet laughed out when receiving his funny messages. Piglet read those previous chats and smiled like an idiot. 

What is MANCE?
Yet, she was afraid of wasting his time. He is not a trash, but the best writer, the intelligent student,  the caring friend, the well-knowing-her Pooh, and the Super Duper lovely friend. 

In her opinion, in her sense, Pooh is more than a friend. She remembers his tender, the mark and how he inspired her. Piglet believes that he will achieve his HONEY - Dr. POOH. (He Will!) even though he is already the Prof in her heart. 


"This is how we GROW." -Pooh 

THE CUPID IS THERE. The story has just begun...

Thursday 30 November 2017

IF (and 'Y')

If you stay,
Hug me like a teddy,

If you cry,
Treat you like a baby,

If I angry,
Take it as a lucky,

If I happy,
Keep it as a memory.


Yet,
Distance, the disaster.