Sunday 3 December 2017

No Wine but Water? No Cupid, but Click. Still Piglet and Pooh!

Gravity of Love

He was not the one… not the apple in Piglet’s eyes, but her heart seemed to have some chemical reaction when she saw Pooh. The moment that they rowed a raft and peace surrounded them, she sensed the secureness in her heart. Yet, Piglet dragged her attention to learn the skill of rowing the raft. She knew that something might get wrong if she insisted that thoughts. NO WAY! Under the moonlight, Pooh listened to her stories and gave her a pat. Piglet believed his Cupid and hoped he would find a girl who treats him nicely and blissfully. This was the only wish that she could give to him. She prayed, fell asleep, and dreamt with a smile on her face, under the moonlight. 

"Thanks, Bro."

No Boundary

Do you believe there is a pure friendship between girls and boys? Her answer is always a ‘Yes’. She could feel his care and she did care for him, hoping that he was happy in school. Thinking that he would always drive safe on his way home. Piglet did capture the moments when they beat and slapped each other during the journey to the South and those workshops in school. She knew he made her feel like a soulmate, instead of brother. She likes the mysterious feeling that how they are able to understand each other without saying, but just feel. 

Piglet and Pooh like COOKIES.

Again, she was aware of her heart and mind, she sensed the ‘click’ with Pooh. She remembered those feelings! She knew that she cared so much for him, instead of others. Piglet and Pooh kept silent. All she wished was just...Pooh's real smile. Piglet's eyes could tell that he is charming and handsome. Yet, she didn’t really... didn’t want to hurt HIM. She would rather keep it as a secret and let it be, naturally, silently, rationally.


The Deep Secret

"I won’t be the stone to create his tumbling waves, he had her smile like the rays of light. I like macarons, he prefers miel coulé. A blind combination will only create diabetes."
 -Piglet

A Sudden Action

A year passed, Pooh's effort paid off. He held a 'Pizza with Pineapple' workshop and invited her. Although she was not a fan of pineapple, she attended it and regarded the pineapple as Cheese. After attending the workshop, after the workshop ended, she dropped her tears, bursting with happiness as she had been seeing him feeling stressed for weeks and hence, it is finally Over! She smiled in her deepest part of her heart because Pooh has been growing, Pooh does a great job and Pooh is POOH! (pfffff) HAHAHA

To express her excitement, she wanted to congratulate him, but everyone was there…Therefore, she stood behind them...not daring to do so. She hoped to hug him and said: "I am proud of you." NO chance, no time. That day, dinner was their only time to enjoy talking and being together. After dinner, he said: “I feel like hugging you.” 

Oh My God!!! Her mind literally had the same thought but how timid she was to actually take a move...She didn’t even know why she cared for him that much, worrying that he might get tired when driving back. Yup, she hoped he drove safe always. That night, Pooh held her hands and hugged her. Obviously, it was out of her expectation. She thought she wouldn't be the one…she thought ‘BRO’ was enough for them. When she felt like breaking down and stop thinking about her previous relationship, she felt hurt when recalling, so she bumped her head to the ground. Surprisingly, his hands captured her head…gently putting her down to ease her worries. Pooh gave her a mark on her cheeks. Again, she was touched and she felt the care. 
"Thanks for always being there for me, as a close friend." 

Really? Jincak? Apa masalah...?

            "Love has no logic? Love has no gravity? Love has no boundary?"
-Piglet: "I can't solve this". 

She thought she is just ordinary, an ignorant (or maybe stupid) and useless... but the ‘click’ happened, it happened and why happened. "I am really nothing, trash and not perfect. I am afraid that I might hurt you." she monologued. Eventually, she was shocked and surprised that Pooh was dared to say out his feelings. BUT WHY "piglet" She is just a PIG, immature PIGLET…


No Logic

Lottie, Heffalumps, Rabbit, and Kessie... they are better, they are prettier and clever…LoVe seemed to be difficult to discover. Piglet enjoyed calling him, several an hour 11 minutes. Piglet laughed out when receiving his funny messages. Piglet read those previous chats and smiled like an idiot. 

What is MANCE?
Yet, she was afraid of wasting his time. He is not a trash, but the best writer, the intelligent student,  the caring friend, the well-knowing-her Pooh, and the Super Duper lovely friend. 

In her opinion, in her sense, Pooh is more than a friend. She remembers his tender, the mark and how he inspired her. Piglet believes that he will achieve his HONEY - Dr. POOH. (He Will!) even though he is already the Prof in her heart. 


"This is how we GROW." -Pooh 

THE CUPID IS THERE. The story has just begun...

Thursday 30 November 2017

IF (and 'Y')

If you stay,
Hug me like a teddy,

If you cry,
Treat you like a baby,

If I angry,
Take it as a lucky,

If I happy,
Keep it as a memory.


Yet,
Distance, the disaster. 

Friday 24 November 2017

What LOVE had taught Me!

The most beautiful scenery isn’t the things that are luxurious and expensive. Sometimes, they are priceless and we even ignore it. To love and be loved, assuming that being loved is the real happiness but sometimes it doesn’t make sense. No matter what, just go for it and prove it right. Finding your own happiness is not tough, the toughest thing is when you have achieved it, hesitation and bad prediction create a failure in a relationship. Trust the one who makes you really feel comfortable with…be yourself in front of him is the luckiest situation. You will never know how much effort you will put it in when you have fallen in love. I don’t need the most beautiful scenery; you are the one who creates it.

            These few months…experiencing long-distance relationship is a must for us. When you need a hug…when you need someone who comforts you…when you can’t bear with the loneliness…when you want to share the happy things around you, but the person is NOT there…when you think about him but you can’t call him…afraid that it will interrupt his studies, ‘you’ need to bear with it. Even though you are not by my side, you do help a lot too, whenever I come across those difficulties, there is always a strength which motivates me. Feeling safe when you hear he is alright at the other place…the same time and the same world. I am not going to say ‘Tu Ran Hao Xiang Ni’ because we always do so. Always and always. Busy won’t make you forget the feeling of love, it is always a matter of heart and Trust~

It is always a kind of motivation.
            Every time, I thought of those fancy and too romantic things…indeed, sometimes they are not that important because it is all about a matter of like (the fire), which grows in your heart. Recalling, who will you save if your mum and wife got drown in the water. In fact, there is no a definite answer. Who will you save and why? If there is a chance, I bet everyone would like to save both at the same time. A sentence makes me feel…the person who does not own the same blood as you is willing to give, love and care, no matter what, no matter who you are. I did shout loudly in my dorm when I got my marks in theory exam…I did climb the gate when I forgot to bring my keys…all and all those funny and clumsy things that I did. It doesn't matter, YOU DON'T MIND..., the only thing that matter is love makes you tolerate.

            Indeed, there is always a thing that makes me carry on, during work or study, suddenly miss those moments, but I need to be tough. Whenever I think that I am NOT the only one who strive for our future, I am NOT the only one who ‘suffer’ the bitter~ Obviously, it is NOT bitter, but bittersweet! The more you get motivated, the bitterness can be coped with sweet. A kind of mindset, a kind of love, a sense of belongings, everything seems to be worth and it is achieved. I don’t need to own a luxury life, but I am heading to achieve a life that I really want to live on. Time is always our accompaniment. We will prove it and I really trust it. There is a person who trusts me more than trusting myself, now, I trust you more than what you have believed. FAITH.

Little things
Suddenly, I realised that the little things that make me feel. When you finish bathing, someone helps you to wipe your hair. When I wanted to take a bus back home, someone drives you back. When you said that you have bought a lot of clothes, someone is willing to pay the favourite one. When you start watching Conjuring with him, you are NOT afraid. When you have insomnia, someone hugs you to make you sleep soundly. When someone feels that you hardly breathe during a period of sleeping, his face is really warm…I sensed his worries. When someone was sick and I had to go to 7-eleven to buy medicine…I thought I just take a few minute to come back and yet, he hugged me and said he thought something happened to me. Also, when I was sick, we took a few hours’ bus, just to take care of me, I was sleeping by his side. When I fell asleep, he was still awake…afraid that I might wake up suddenly. Finally, he slept at 3am. All these little things…have an ONLY, ONE reason. Love brings care, care brings warmth and warmth bring you happiness. It is really happy and feeling secure that when you wake up, the first sight that you see is the only Someone.

A memorable chop
            Logically, lock and key are inseparable, together seems to be their jobs and no one can ruin it. It seems easy to have a crush but difficulties are around the corner…only the real key can unlock the deepest heart. Nobody is the most suitable partner, but there is somebody who can make a difference. As for me, lock and key are a kind of secure…as if the lips and forehead, which bring you a short but memorable chop. I can’t forget the first time when I got frustrated, almost as cold as ice and start having a cold war, you are the one who hugged me and told me not to be angry. I suddenly realised my heart can’t be as cool as usual, I couldn’t get mad at that moment. I calmed myself and finally, I found something… A Unrealisable Medicine!

            I was insecure when I started to get cold. Thinking about the gaps and molecules, I feel nervous to feel it and endure in it. I am afraid to take steps. Hoping to find a better way to express myself. Shall I trust or shall I NOT trust? I asked. I am ready to put in my effort, I am NOT doomed to what I afraid, I am bound to what I hope. I only live once, and I do wish it really counts. There are a lot of sayings that do put too much trust and you are too young to experience the romance. Age…you may understand through ages but it doesn’t mean that you are too young to understand. I hope I prove it right that my mindset gives me a motivation to move on. I don’t need fresh things, but I do need a simple love. A big love is what I give to everyone, treating everyone as the one I respect and care for. I can’t tell who I love the most but I feel that, I sense that and I own it. This is the only secret that I keep in my heart and buried in it. I whisper to the one, to the ones and everyone.

A soft tender
            When you hug me like a teddy bear, I feel the power of being adored, and the spark of your odour. I can’t tell how much I love this, and I know you feel the same. When you hug me like a princess, I have no fear of height. I was shocked when I purposely ignored you and ran away from your arms, you smacked the walls, and I was as if a mouse…hiding in the blankets and crying like hell. I know how much you care for me and I really hope this continues and never ever stop. I wish hard! Every time, when I sleep in your arms, I feel secure and I fell asleep easily. I forget about those insomnia and bad dreams. When I suddenly woke up from the terrifying dream, you hugged me tightly and said: “It’s ok and I am here.” I feel safe and the safest. I do say I can’t live without you and I make it as a promise. Coz I love you more than what I thought. When you fell sick, I couldn’t sleep, hope that I am really by your side. Hope that YOU are FINE!

A childish anger
            When he was tired, but I kept on disturbing him to wake him up. After several ‘shouting’, I directly walked out his room, really dislike the feeling of getting ignored by someone. After that, I planned to have a walk to calm down my feelings. Unexpectedly, he cycled to find me as he had noticed that I went out. When I saw him, the feeling is like ANGRY but HAPPY. I know he cares always but it makes me feel like I am the one who increases his worries. After that, walked back, slept back and kept silent. I really need to learn to tolerate.
[IGNORE MY PRESENT TENSE…]

A New Start
            When distance seemed not to be a problem...when we thought trust is capable to sustain a relationship...when we thought love was sufficient, WE might be wrong and it is not what we think to be and meant to be. I hope after months and years, I will meet a guy who said: “I live myself and I have gone through something better in my life (in a positive way)”. Love is not the only thing in life, it is a part of life, an ideology in human life, a feeling…I hope you manage to know the true meaning that we are not together. I am glad that we are still good, best friends. I am fortunate to have you in my life…I don’t regret! I am happy, no matter past or present, I WON’T FORGET YOU. It is okay that you forget me¬ I hope for the best to you, no matter what.

            Thanks for being a good boyfriend previously and a good best friend now.
            Thanks for accompanying me throughout the long-distance relationship and the long-distance run! I appreciate so much, I really appreciate it. I hope you will find a better GIRL in future. In terms of tolerance, love, care, and everything…That girl will exist, time will tell us what are we going to do and what are we going to be…

            I hope for the best to you, as an ex, as a good friend, as a WHAT YOU THINK I am. Thanks for everything and anything you have done for me. All the best for your studies and exercise!!! I will learn to be a better person and looking forward to a better BS too. We will be BETTER AND the BEST one day! Please please please TAKE CARE of yourself. Don’t be sad, we are fine! We are okay...If there is anything troubling you, don’t forget ET is here… I will keep my promise and look forward to every moment, be HAPPY ALWAYS! 

Hoping that you will have a new definition of 'ALWAYS'!


--I wrote about HIM, and now, I write about YOU.--
---I'M lucky to have those wonderful days---

Tuesday 22 August 2017

Fearless Peace


Every action begets a reaction,
From known to unknown,

Noon stumbles over humble,
Night woofs with the smooth,
Dawn remains blonde?

Friday 2 June 2017

MUZOLOG (music monologue)

Colors Speak,
Silent You,
Soul Crawls,
Strengthen Me.

Call Me,
Heart Sings,
Capture You,
Stay Hard.

Friday 7 April 2017

A Monologue of the Wanderer

I wonder
And ponder,
If I like the moonlight,
And if only I can capture it right...

I seek for flower
Without powder,
If I enjoy the night,
Without thinking of flight...